long time no speak

The reason i haven’t been here in a while is because I had nothing to say. But now I do, I think a lot and the reason I probably think a lot about a lot of things is because i smoke. The thing is, maybe i don’t see it but I think smoking has effected my life a lot, besides the fact that it can cause cancer and has like a million chemicals in it which mostly can cause death, right? But, everything can make u die, mostly everything. I think when i smoke.
My parents know so that doesn’t matter, but I don’t talk to my mother because I basically don’t trust her to make the story short. I mean the other things that change are like my friends, I am friends with the same people but I made some new friends. It’s all messed up, the people I used to not hang out with before, i hang out with more, and the close friends i used to have and be close to… the friendship kind of died out. The thing is that there’s this one girl, that seemed like it was on the path for us to becoming really close because us four girls were like the girls in sex and the city, it was basically the goal to become like them, well at least to me. But then me and (lets call her Bobbette) Bobbette became really close and the other two became really close, to it was like couples separating. Then when i started smoking, the girl looked at me different which got me really mad.
It wasn’t just us 4, it was a lot of us. We all used to have so many little things with the group of friends, like we were trying to be something we weren’t. First we were skins, and then we were the illest dorks and then the girls were like sex and the city or friends. But why, why do we have to be that, and if you DO want to be like them you have to go all the way with it, or else just be like yourselves. We just liked the idea. There’s something there to depend on, someone, more than just one person, a lot of people to depend on. It’s more than having a best friend or a boyfriend. It’s more than one. The thing is after a while you begin to question who likes who most or who to really trust and don’t want a disappointment.
I hate disappointments, that’s why i don’t like to trust or to have hope. Fuck it. What is the point of caring? Most of things in our lives disappear eventually and if they don’t, you never know which ones will stay forever.

I sound like I’ve been through everything, don’t I? Well i haven’t. Not yet anyway.

Fashions night out NYC

Fashions night out in NYC was all over NYC. Some things were in Soho, 5th avenue, the meat packing district, Lexington ave. (where Bloomingdales is) and more places. The 2 main places were Soho and 5th avenue. Soho would be more bohemian, where people would go for free drinks and shop until 9pm, Soho is a place that is awesome. 5th avenue is more upscale, more celebrities would be there and more people would be there, the large stores and name brands are in 5th avenue, for fashions night out you would go there to see the people not shop till you drop. I went to Soho. I went there because I felt like it would more fun for me. It was crowded and it was an area I would know a little better. It’s just a place I would be happy in and would go on any day. But, fashions night out for whole city is more exciting than any other day. In Soho, you could get the chance to see the BIG PEOPLE, and see men in boxes (which did happen), and see people that are dressed so nice and look like models. So, that was my night. An, exciting-crowded-wondering-around-night in the city.

P.S. the men in the boxes were plastic boxes and they were “KEN dolls” (they looked like dolls). Kind of creepy, but there was a whole lot of crowd there. Also, if I was older it would be more fun to go to different places for free alcoholic beverages.

Cafe Glechik review

So, today I went to this cafe on Sheapshead Bay (that’s in Brooklyn,NY). It’s a West Ukrainian themed place. I went there in the morning time (like noon). So, therefore I got breakfast. What I got could be served as lunch also because it has meat, it’s not sweet. This place doesn’t have “breakfast” “lunch” and “dinner” times. So, the waiter can’t be like “sorry ma’am, breakfast was over 4 minutes ago”. …So, I am going to show you some decorations (which I think are really good). The decorations give a meaning to the place. I love the theme and I like the food. I am used to the food somewhat. It is a little different from Russian food (I am Russian), so I am somewhat familiar with the food. Also, another fact is that the dialect from Western Ukraine is different (so my mother says, she says that she couldn’t understand ANYTHING they are saying (she’s Russian) comparison to other parts of Ukraine). From the look of the place, it looks like a village, not very city-like.
You will see it in the pictures I took. I don’t like the pictures that much because I didn’t feel comfortable to stand up and take the photos that I want.

Little things that put the whole place together

Decorations that tell a story of how it is in Ukraine

The dining part

photography videos

Now I will have themes for my videos as long as I don’t learn anything new about photography. I should take a class for it… Okay!! so here it is. Check out my page.

OLD!!!… pictures- with style

So, I think baby steps would be the way to go. When I wanted to learn film photography, which I still do want to, I needed a tutor or a teacher. FAIL. But, I think that I will just do what I know and practice doing what I know. So, I made another video- and I learned how to make better videos, and as time passes by, I will learn more and more and about how to make better videos. Okay, so here it it… my new video.

and here is the link to my page- http://www.youtube.com/user/smexiimarii

This video is about how I made pictures and I turned them into 70′s styled pictures. COLOR, PEACE…. etc.

Not yet…

So, there’s no video yet due to the fact that I haven’t learned anything new about photography. Soon, I will, sometime this week. I’m going to learn about film photography from my friend. He keeps telling me that I know nothing about photography, and he knows plenty because, of course, he’s more experienced!! So, as a result, he is teaching me what i need to know. So, from time to time I will have a video, and a writing piece to the things I may not explain. I don’t know about the pictures, because it’s on film. And, frankly I don’t know anything about film photography, just the fact that it’s not digital.

Which brings me to another subject, the DIGITAL AGE. Which, I am pretty sure are two scary words to the elder people of the world. It’s probably a lot simpler for people. The computer is good to save things on, but on the other hand- it can crash and all the information is gone!! Cell phones are good because they’re useful- they can also be tracking devices. My point is that there are the good and the bads about the digital age. To the older people the bad overpowers the bad. And, to the new generation there is no bad!! So, yeah.

Some things make people stay on the computer for hours and hours…. (me). But, some teens are actually doing things, not only chatting with friends, but blogging, making youtube videos, looking up ways to get a job…. to follow their dreams in the digital age.  These pictures, are before and now…

Photography styles

So, some of these I was playing with colors, light, angles. I think these are my best and favorite ones. I explain everything in my video about the things I have learned.